Going in Circles

 Facing challenges everyday is hard to deal with. Being sick everyday definitely takes a toll mentally, emotionally, and of course physically. Having a lot of symptoms that are debilitating and unpredictable are hard to handle every single day. Sometimes its hard to wrap my mind around the fact that this is my current reality at nineteen years old. I can never let my gaurd down with my symptoms, not even for a few hours there to severe to ignore.
Where do I go from here?
How do I move forward when it feels like I’m always going in circles. Nothing about this journey has been easy, but this feels so out of control. I have to take one day at a time, but I want more than this. Now I have to figure out how to get there.


“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today. Matthew 6:34

Romans 15:13  May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.


9 thoughts on “Going in Circles

  1. You are radiant! Thank you for your transparency and for sharing your heart! Romans 15:13 is one of my life verses and it is a life line for me daily-my Rope of Hope:) Shine on sister! It is in the wrestling matches of life that we sweat – or GLOW -the most! GoGod

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  2. I totally understand where you are coming from. I have had chronic pain for over 20 years and depression and other mental issues for longer than that. It can feel like the world is closing in on you; however, people like us have to look for those silver linings. Those scriptures you quoted are the perfect ones. Remember God never gives us more than we can handle. I get by sometimes just resting in the knowledge that He is in control and has a purpose for everything. You will find yours in His time. Hugs and prayers, Lydia

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  3. My sweet little sister, Heidi. I know the struggles you are enduring. I can see that you are a person of faith. That is a plus for you. Know this, God can and does love you and I know that He can bless you as you struggle. Never, never, never give up. Hugs from a distance.

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  4. I was so broken at nineteen. Insanity even invited me to receive it. Really. It was just an arm’s reach away.

    I laid my head down and said, “Lord, You said You’d never give us more than we can handle. I’m at my very end. I am going to lay my head down now, and go to sleep. When I wake up, things can only be better.”

    And, they were. It took 40 years of wilderness walking for me to come to total healing…but that’s where I am today. It’s like I’m an eight year old in Healed Days (that’s how many years I’ve had, feeling totally healed.)

    You never know what a day can bring…and THIS day, God is here, and God is Good. Trust His Heart. He’s banking Treasure’s In Heaven for You. He likes to ensure we receive a good return on our investments…and, Heidi, you are fully invested.


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