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Versatile blog award

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Hello! This week I have been nominated for the Versatile blog award for the second and third time. Thank you to Rebekah at https://itspotsable.wordpress.com and Sarah at https://chronicallysarahlynn.wordpress.com!

Rules of The Versatile Blogger Award:

1. Thank the person who gave you this award. That’s common courtesy.
2. Include a link to their blog. That’s also common courtesy — if you can figure out how to do it.
3. Next, select blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly.
4. Nominate those bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award — you might include a link back to the post on your site announcing their nomination.
5. Finally, tell the person who nominated you, seven facts about you.

I nominate:

https://inthefurnacebutnotconsumed.wordpress.com/

https://rhosynmd.wordpress.com/

https://girllivingforgod.wordpress.com/

Seven Facts –

  1. Soccer is my favorite sport. I played for almost 11 years.
  2. I live with my parents, and I have two older sisters and a niece.
  3. I would love to live by the beach someday.
  4. I have seen every episode of Friends, and The Big Bang Theory more than once…
  5. I like to draw, crochet, and work on different types of crafts.
  6. I graduated high school online.
  7. I could listen to music non stop and never get tired of it.

Thank you for reading my blog! : )

Fighting

Nothing about being chronically sick is easy. Being able to do little things usually seem like big things. Little dreams seem like big dreams.

Going a day without needing an appointment or going without pain, and exhaustion would be a amazing. Its been years since that has happened. I pray it will.

I am unable to drive, go to school, have a job. But fighting to get through the day, surviving the day, is a job all on its own.

Everyday seems like a fight. Everything I do, I fight to do it.

I fight everyday. I fight for my heath. I fight to live. I fight for a future.

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Even if I am feeling a little better my symptoms are still debilitating. Being able to sit up for an hour or so without too much pain or exhaustion is considered a better day. Being able to sit outside, or walking into the kitchen to get my food or drink is something I usually  have to push through to do. Even taking a shower, with a shower chair is still hard most of the time.

How did everything become this hard?

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I can’t run away from my illness. To get through this I have to face it head on, and that is what I try to do everyday.

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I don’t know direction I am headed in.

Do I even have a direction?

I know what my goal is, to get better, to live, not just survive. I guess I will start with that.

 

Struggling

Nothing is easy. Everything is fight. I fight for my health, and my future everyday. Pain, exhaustion, doctors is my reality everyday. Getting up everyday to fight is hard, but there is no strength without struggle.

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Hope anchors the soul

Hebrews 6:19 We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain

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Hope anchors the soul!

I drew this yesterday. Its the first time in the past few months that I felt good enough to sit up long enough to draw.

New Week!

This last has been really rough. I’m glad it’s over!

I spent most of the week detoxing toxins, heavy metals, yeast, and fungus. I should be pro by now!

Dealing with all of these leaves me feeling weak and exhausted. My brain chemistry feels more unbalanced than usual. My brain fog is worse than usual. My speech comes out sluggish and slurred sometimes, and I have been paler than usual and my eyes are sunken in more. I have really hard time concentrating, processing and remembering information,  and even having a normal conversation. Thankfully by the end the week my mind became a little more clear, and most of those symptoms have subsided some.

I also had inflammation in my brain and spine. This causes a lot of problems with my cebral spinal fluid which is very painful, and creates even more debiltaing symptoms.

By using a combination of different treatments, such as Laser therapy, adjustments, micro current, footbaths, and nutrition, I was able to get the some of the pain under control. I am a little more stable now and hope that treatments continue to help.