Endurance

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The past week I been feeling awful, my body has been very unstable. I have been dealing with multiple problems, on top of my regular symptoms. I have been having a lot of inflammation in my arteries, and a lot toxins in my heart, lungs, stomach, and brain. Since my body has a hard time detoxing it takes multiple treatments and therapies to get rid of some of the toxins. Sometimes I have had to have two appointments a day, and today I finally feel a little bit more stable. I hope this week I will start to feel a little better, and I won’t have to have as many doctor appointments.

Galatians 6:9 And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.

Hebrews 10:36
For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised.

Diligence

diligence : careful and persistent work or effort.

This week I been really exhausted and we have been working hard to try and keep my body stable. My body has been having a hard time processing my nutrition lately, which causes my brain to be very deficient. With each appointment my body has become a little more stable, and I am feeling a little better. It takes a lot of hard work just to survive. I hope that one day my hard work will pay off and help me live a healthier life!

Romans 12:12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.

Psalms 27:14 Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!

Staying Power

Staying Power : the ability to maintain an activity or commitment despite fatigue or difficulty

I have been struggling a lot lately. We have been having hard time finding relief, and any type of solutions. I still have to have daily treatments just to survive. Hopefully next week we can figure out a different plan, and maybe come with some different testing for my mitoclandria.

Joshua 1:9  “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Isaiah 41:10  fear not, for I am with you;  be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

1 Chronicles 16:11  Seek the LORD and his strength;  seek his presence continually!

Persistence

per·sist·ence
firm or obstinate continuance in a course of action in spite of difficulty or opposition.

Every I face challenges. Every day is challenge. My exhaustion is severe and overwelming. The everyday brain fog is frustrating and hard to deal with. It has become hard to move. The reality of my illness is weird, this is my life at 19 years old? This can’t be all there is. I have to take it day by day, hour by hour. I keep working, keep trying. I have to have six appointments a week still. I hope we can find answers and relief.

Romans 15:13  May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

Determination

Determination : the act of coming to a decision or of fixing or settling a purpose.

imageThe simple things in my life are hard. Getting up and around is hard everyday. On most days walking, sitting, standing is painful and exhausting. Simple things that I used to take for granted now take a lot of hard work. Trying to get better takes determination and I work hard at it every day. It is not easy, but I have to try.

Perseverance

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The first three years I was sick I tried to live the most normal life as possible. I went to school, played soccer, I would hang out with my friends on regular basis, and I would just try to schedule my doctor appointments around my schedule. I would have adjustments, see specialists, have differents tests done, try a lot of different type of treatments, and get IV nutrition. As time went on I didn’t get any long term relief, and my body continued to get to worse over time. As it became harder to live a normal life I had to put more time and effort in to getting better and becoming healthier.

Three years ago my health was really poor and I needed treatments regulary. I was no longer able to exercise or go to school so I had to focus on my health. My body was only functioning at about 25 percent. Getting healthy was going to be a long and hard process. We had to begin healing my stomach and intestines. As time went on a few things were slowly  getting better, but a lot of my symptoms continued to get worse. I got more frequent infections, and more inflammation throughout my body. As my illness became more debilitating, I needed daily treatments just to get through the day, I still do. I am glad I have doctors willing and caring to help me, but I wish I didnt have to rely on them so much. I continue to work hard at becoming healthy because the hard work has to pay off sometime, right?

On February 12, I started a on a new mitochondria supplement that I will hopefully see long term results. I still feel like I don’t know a lot about my illness. I learn as I go. I am ready for the step.