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Show Me What I’m Looking For

I have been thinking about this song recently. I used to listen to hard when I was really sick. When I get caught up in everything going on in my life, I don’t turn to God when I should. It can be easy to get caught in the chaos, and my pride and think I can handle things on my own. I will always need God. I am continuing to grow in my faith and work on  turning to God for guidance.

“But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul”  Deuteronomy 4:29

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the LORD. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. Isaiah 55:8

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One year

One year ago I began my chronic illness recovery journey. My life has changed so much. For years I have wondered when I would finally feel better. I didn’t get better over night. I am still working on feeling better.

It has been a year or growth, learning, and Changes. It has been an amazing new beginning. I have gotten through, and survived my worst days. I can now put those days behind me and move forward.

You say: “It’s impossible ” God says: All things are possible

You say: ” I can’t do it” God says: You can do all things

“I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness; I will sing the praises of the name of the LORD Most High.” Psalm 7:17

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Blessing

There have been times throughout my illness when I wondered if God was listening to my prayers. I wondered if he knew how much I was struggling. How much I needed help from him. So many times, almost all time, I wonder what is God’s purpose for me throughout all of this. There have also been times where I thought that asking for his help would be a sign of weakness. Putting all of my trust in God hasn’t been a easy journey.

Slowly my faith has gotten stronger. I am learning to trust in God’s plan, and his timing even when I don’t understand it. He has made my struggle, my pain, my illness possible for me get through it. He has made it possible for me to be in recovery, and to make as much progress as I have.

I have been blessed with this amazing gift of getting better. I have been given this second chance, and I don’t want to waste it.

I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes. ~e.e. cummings

Psalm 18:6 “But in my distress I cried out to the LORD; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary, my cry to him reached his ears.”

Job 5:9 “He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted.”

Psalm 81:6-7 “I removed the burden from their shoulders; their hands were set free from the basket. In your distress you called and I rescued you, I answered you out of a thundercloud; I tested you at the waters of Maribah.”

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Psalm 16:11

You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand. Psalm 16: 11

The simple things in life are beautiful.

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April 23

“My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.” Psalm 121:2

“Thus says God the LORD, he that created the heavens, and stretched them out; he that spread forth the earth, and that which comes out of it; he that gives breath unto the people upon it, and spirit to them that walk therein” Isaiah 42:5

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Another walk ❤

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Psalm 19:1-6

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Psalm 19:1-6

The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they reveal knowledge. They have no speech, they use no words; no sound is heard from them. Yet their voice goes out into all the earth; their words to the ends of the world. In the heavens God has pitched a tent for the sun. It is like a bridegroom coming out of his chamber, like a champion rejoicing to run his course. It rises at one end of the heavens; and makes its circuit to the other; nothing is deprived of its warmth.

Faith through illness

Growing up I always thought I had a strong faith. When I was younger it was easy to feel like I had a strong faith when things in my life are going well. It wasn’t until I had been sick for a few years that I finally realized that I never really knew what it truly meant to put all of trust in God, and put my life completely in his hands. It took me being a my lowest point of pain, and desperation that I was I able to ask God to take complete control of my life.

There have been so many times where I ran from God instead of running to him. When I was sick I there were many different periods of times where I would feel lost, angry, depressed, or confused. I have learned throughout the years that being apart from God is not a freedom its a loss. It only makes the challenges even harder to handle.

After seven years of being sick, I am starting to feel better than I have in years. This is what I have always hoped and prayed for. God is Good. Having faith through the most difficult times has been so important, and it has helped me to be able to move forward with my life.

“These trials have come so that your faith of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” 1 Peter 1:7

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Fix your eyes

 

Psalm 86:11

Teach me Your way, O LORD; I will walk in Your truth; Unite my heart to fear Your name.

 Psalm 73:23-24

Nevertheless I am continually with You; You have taken hold of my right hand. With Your counsel You will guide me, And afterward receive me to glory.

I’m glad I found this song. I really needed to hear this!