This Imperfect Life

 

This Life is messy, unpredictable, and imperfect. Life will never be perfect. Healthy or Sick, but life doesn’t have to be perfect to have meaning. Life can be simple, and it can still be great.

Its easy to think back on hard times and wonder if you could have changed things or somehow avoided some of the struggle or the pain.  I felt anger, depressed, and confused at times when I have thought about it.  I am still learning from those experiences. One thing all of this has taught me is to notice the joy in the small things I used to take for granted.  I have also learned that whether I am healthy or sick life is imperfect.  There will be always be good days and bad.

There will be hardships, and challenges that is inevitable.

When I recover I will have the courage to let go of the past. – unknown

I want to move forward. I want the future to be great. I want to be healthy.

I want to learn to live in moment. I want to feel free of the past.

There will always be goals to set. To work towards. There are always things to learn, and reasons to grow.

“I like cancelled plans. And empty bookstores. I like rainy days and thunderstorms. And quiet coffee shops. I like messy beds and over-worn pajamas. Most of all, I like the small joys that a simple life brings.” – Unknownbe53c5443d5940cd09437f6778ed75cb

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Unpredictable

 Living with severe, debilitating symptoms I can never let my guard down.

Everyday is unpredictable.

Every few hours I have to continually try to treat my symptoms or it becomes out of control.

Not only does the pain and exhaustion get worse, but my whole body functions extremely slow. My organs, lymphatic, CSF, slow down severely. The pain becomes unbearable. I can’t function like this.

Soon I have symptoms on top symptoms, and my body goes down hill very quickly. I have to dig myself out of a hole just to get back up to my “regular” chronic symptoms.

How I am supposed to break this pattern?

I won’t give up.

You say, “It’s impossible.” God says, “All things are possible.” (Luke 18:27)

You say, “I can’t do it.” God says, “You can do all things.” (Philippians 4:13)

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