Growing up I always thought I had a strong faith. When I was younger it was easy to feel like I had a strong faith when things in my life are going well. It wasn’t until I had been sick for a few years that I finally realized that I never really knew what it truly meant to put all of trust in God, and put my life completely in his hands. It took me being a my lowest point of pain, and desperation that I was I able to ask God to take complete control of my life.
There have been so many times where I ran from God instead of running to him. When I was sick I there were many different periods of times where I would feel lost, angry, depressed, or confused. I have learned throughout the years that being apart from God is not a freedom its a loss. It only makes the challenges even harder to handle.
After seven years of being sick, I am starting to feel better than I have in years. This is what I have always hoped and prayed for. God is Good. Having faith through the most difficult times has been so important, and it has helped me to be able to move forward with my life.
“These trials have come so that your faith of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” 1 Peter 1:7
Let Me help you through this day. The challenges you face are far too great for you to handle alone. You are keenly aware of your helplessness in the scheme of events you face. This awareness opens up a choice: to doggedly go it alone or to walk with Me in humble steps of dependence. Actually, this choice is continually before you, but difficulties highlight the decision-making process. So, consider it all joy whenever you are enveloped in various trials. These are gifts from Me, reminding you to rely on Me alone.
Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.
Consider it wholly joyful, my brethren, whenever you are enveloped in or encounter trials of any sort or fall into various temptations. Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience.
Things have changed.
Things are still changing.
One step at a time.
I feel like a different person.
I’m Climbing up the from the bottom, and it feels amazing.
I am finally climbing up instead of falling back down.
This is the change I have always been looking for.